So, one of the things you may not know is that I’m currently fighting depression. It’s been about a five-year descent, but I’ve only recognized it in the last six months or so. I’ve had lots of private conversation about this with dear people for which I will be eternally grateful. The Nashville Acting Studio has also been helpful as connecting with a character is so much about self exploration. NAS led me to Brene Brown, who led me to Terrance Real’s I Don’t Want to Talk About It: Overcoming the Secret Legacy of Male Depression, who introduced me to the term “covert depression.” At least now I know what to call it.
At some point I may blog more about my experience with depression, but for now I just wanted to give a little bit of background to set up my gratitude list. Gratitude is one of the weapons I fight this bastard with. This week I had a breakthrough. It came in the middle of the night. I woke up. I tossed and turned. I prayed and it felt like a cloud lifted and I was left with unexplainable courage of heart. And too excited to go back to sleep. I felt proud. I may not be where I would like to be in my career, but I’m proud of my work. Damn proud. And I’m proud of myself for being brave enough to try really hard things that I have a passion for doing.
So, I’ve been feeling really good lately. And for that I’m thankful. Here’s my gratitude list for the week:
- Unexplainable encouragement
- Morning run with Happy Girl
- Pictures of the band and me at The Table
- Unusual and unexpected income
- Visit with a friend whom I respect more every time I’m with him
- After close to five trips to the shop over the last 3 weeks, the van is finally in good shape
- Relationship with Granny and a chance to visit with her
- Ideas from a recent Werkshop Marketing DIG
- Great rehearsal with the best worship team in town
Musician face with The Table Troubadours
Can you see me?
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